Ok, so I suck..

I know I know, I've been seriusly neglecting my blog but cmon, how many people read this anyway? I miss my chatbox...you see, I was editing my template *ahem ahem Ian, I'll get you for this* and the next thing I know, it's gone. Oh well.

So I'm in the middle of my trials. Surprisingly, it hasn't been all that bad. I think I might be able to pass (but when has a pass ever been enough eh?) and I've even been able to keep down my stress to a reasonable level. It seems almost too easy and thats troubling. Call me emo, but once life starts getting too good it seems its never too long before everything comes crashing down. Heh.

See, I have no idea what to blog about anymore. It's not that I have nothing to say....oh believe me, I've never been one to keep quiet and my lifes been extremely...interesting...lately. But it's like you actually have to BE there to get all this stuff,you know? Ah..I digress.

The return...

I know I know, I've been really slack with this lately. Theres just been so much happening these days and I guess I've been too busy living in the moment( *cough* *gag* cheesy line alert.but i digress) . And by the time I think I might blog about everything going on, something else would have happened and I'd just end up not blogging about it at all. Heh.

And my trials are coming up. Sigh. It's like a never ending vicious cycle of exams. I wish I could say I've been studying my butt off, but the truth is, apart from my assignments and studying for the occasional class test, I've seriously been neglecting my books. Oh well. I'll start next week.But now that I think about it, I might've said that last week as well....

Uhoh.

I'm back :D

So, after months of stressing, being miserable and just not being myself, I've come to the most obvious decision on earth. I'm done trying to be something I'm not. I'm hyper, I get excited without any reason whatsoever, I'm loud, I say stuff that people find very very weird, I HATE pop(I'm more of a alternrock/soft rock kinda gurl) and I'm HAPPY! I know I have a weird accent which isn't exactly maldivian, malaysian or indian (I'm not quite sure what it is) and I'm sorry if it isn't 'brown' enough for some people (haha, trust me, that wasn't my choice of words) but I like it :). I think it's interesting, and if it's weird or whatever, so be it.

And yes, I'm 16. Get over it already.

I'm done with feeling upset everytime someone calls me ugly indirectly. Just because I'm new in Malaysia and I'm little doesn't mean I can't be a bitch. I just choose not to be most of the time.

Am I a pain in the ass at times? that I am(see, acceptance is good.heh). But I have some amazing friends who love me just the way I am. And if I'm too immature for some people, just imagine what other people must be saying about you.heh.

So to everyone who has been HORRIBLE to me over the months...
You.Can't.Break.Me.

And for those really really nice people I've met, I mean no offense to you whatsoever, and I love you guys for being such good friends to me.

Dhivehinnah: Yeah, I'm back:D and...thanx for bitching with me.

Tagged

So I've been tagged too


1) Three Things I can't do:
- Listen to rap. Seriusly. I just cant.
- Whistle...how stupid is that?:P
- Hide my feelings very well...hehe....and that tends to get me into all kinda messes.

2) Three things I can do:
- Stick by my beliefs regardless of peer preasure oh watever
- Shop for hours and hours and hours
- Eat alot of ice cream. Honestly, I don't know anyone else who loves it like I do.

3) Three things that scare me:
- Not having a happy ending
- People changing
- Not living upto my own expectations of myself


4) Three things I love:
- Cuddling :) but not with just anyone of course..hehe
- CHOCOLATE!
- Hanging out with my gurls


5) Three things I hate:
- Back stabbers
- People who think they kno me when they dont kno me.at all.
- Racist people


Well now, I will tag these three lovely people.
- Luzzio
- Justin
- Moon

Blogging from the web

I'm bored. I finished class at 10 today(wuhoo just one class) Well, I skipped thinking skills but cmon, it's thinking skills. I fail to see the whole point in the subject since it never seems like we make any progress in it and australian universities don't even consider it a subject. And yeah, i suck at it.Heh. Which is kind of embarassing since it's called 'thinking skills' and me getting a D in it basically means I can't think. But I got ok marks in my other subjects, so that clearly shows my thinking ability aint too bad...so really, they should rename the subject.

Annnyways, after business class I spent an hour in the library studying offer and acceptance for our law test on Monday as I have no intention of studying too much during the weekend because,well, it's the weekend. Urgh! Honestly, contract law is soo complicated and there are so many cases to memorise! And to think we were complaing about ELS. But I guess I should get used to this if I intend to study law in uni. Hmm...I'm still trying to decide whether I should do a double major in l law/econs, law/journalism or law/politics. The latter seems the most appealing although I don't reckon dads going to be too pleased. He wants me to stay as far away from politics as possible and he does have a point. I mean, my dads not a politician exactly, but me and my sister have gotten enough crap from people because of his job and I know he's faced much,much worse stuff. People just don't seem to realize that a job doesn't define a person. Sigh, oh well. But anyway, I don't intend to get into the Maldivian politics...I want to work as a lawyer in the UN hopefully. Hmm... I guess I should try to actually get into a decent uni first.Heh. At the moment, I need to get a minimum grade of AAB to get into Monash or an ABB if I decide to settle for UQ. But I dont want to settle, I'm done with settling.

Dream girl - Dave Matthews Band

I would dig a hole all the way to China
Unless of course I was there
then I’d dig my way home
If by diggin’ I could steal
the wind from the sails
of the greedy men who ruled the world

Still you’re my best friend
And after a good, good drunk
You and me wake up and make love after a deep sleep
Where I was Dreamin’, I was Dreamin’ of a
Dreamgirl, Dreamgirl, Dreamgirl, Dreamgirl

I was feelin’ like a creep
As I watched you asleep
Face down in the grass,in the park,
in the middle
of a hot afternoon
Your top was untied
And I thought how nice
It’d be to follow the sweat down your spine

You’re like my best friend
aw after a good, good drunk
You and me wake up and make love after a deep sleep
Where I was Dreamin’, I was Dreamin’ of a
Dreamgirl, Dreamgirl, Dreamgirl, Dreamgirl

Caught by a wave
my back to the ocean it knocks me off my feet and
just as I find my footing
here you come again
Dreamgirl, aww Dreamgirl, Dreamgirl, Dreamgirl, Dreamgirl,
Dreamgirl,
(

1 down, 9 more to go..

The fasts that I have to replace before Ramadan, that is. Considering that it starts in September, it's a bit of a rush I guess, but what can I say, I love my food. Heh. Ok, so maybe I can't exactly finish it most of the time, but I do love what I do manage to eat. And when was the last time anyone saw me unable to finish chocolate anyway? Chocolate qualifies for food,right?

Today was extreeeemely tiring and very....strange. I woke up at 5 am to have my breakfast and figured I would just stay awake. Hah. I really should stop making stupid decisions like that so early in the morning. I spent the rest of the day regretting it, walking around like a zombie, talking a mile a minute about god knows what. Oh god, I don't even remember most of what I said. Justin claims I was being 'very honest' with my opinions today. Sigh, something tells me that's not a good thing.

I've been listening to alot of Damien Rice and Elvis Perkins these days(good stuff, but you might not want to try it if you're into stuff like say...rihanna?). I've figured, it's ok to be sad once in awhile as long as it's something worth being sad over. At least that's what my mums always told me and my sis. This homesickness is probably just a passing thing after my hols...ahh,we shall see. Hmm soon enough, I'll be listening to the Kooks and Arctic Monkeys again (=