Back to that place..

Why is it that I keep finding myself in this place? That place where I keep holding out and making myself find some ray of hope in a very hopeless situation. Believe me, it's worse than it actually sounds..because the thing with hope is even the slightest existence of it holds the potential for unbearable amounts of dissapointment. I know that people dont mean to give other people false hope..just like how other people dont mean to depend on this paticular false hope. But it happens. It's not fair, but it happens.

Yes, I'm very aware I must not be making much sense to anyone reading this. I guess I'm just hoping a certain someone stumbles onto this entry and sees what I've been dying to say, because when it comes down to it, everything I want to say gets reduced to a blabbering mess when in company of this certain someone...

So here goes. I just want to be worth it. Thats it. That's all it comes down to. Is it worth it?

Blogging from Lanka..

People, Juna has left the building. Or rather, country. I never thought I'd say this, but I miss Malaysia and all it's luxuries(Starbucks, oh how I miss thou). And you wont hear me saying this alot, but I miss PL-1 and all its madness too...Justin, I miss bullying you..Eu Jin, I miss how you never stop horrifying me with your sense of music and Mervyn, I miss laughing at those poor souls who walk past starbucks oblivious to our sarcastic and slightly cruel jokes.

Damn. I don't sound very nice, do I? O_o

I spent slightly over 24 hours in Male' before making my way to the land of beautiful beady necklaces. And let me assure you, a very dramatic 24 hours they were. Not in a good way either. As insanely boring as it is in Sri Lanka (apart from the odd brady-bunch/hallmark family moments), I guess it's safe to say I am scared shitless of going back to Male' on Friday. I knew it was going to be hard, but I guess I undermined how painful 1.5 km of land could be. Or maybe I simply overestimated myself. Heh.

So to summarize, to this point, my holiday has been filled with drama, complicated matters of the heart, and shopping. Sigh.