Who Knew?

People surprise you. Just as you think you've got them wrapped in a nutshell, they turn around and prove you wrong. And lately, that's been a really good thing because I've been very pleasently surprised. I never imagined I'd have somewhat of a decent conversation with these people, but I did. And let's hope there's more to come. So much for superficial judegement eh? heh.

Not that I'm saying I've always been just pleasently surprised. I've had a couple of 'encounters' (if that's what you want to call it) with some people here that's made me want to get on the first flight back to Male'. Most of the time they're quite nice people, but sometimes I wonder if they're MY kind of people(my kind = well, I dont know really). We just dont seem to be on the same wave length. Oh well.

Public announcment

To all the guys out there who are either trying to get over an ex, trying to move on from THE gurl or just you know having plain old gurl issues....

STOP HITTING ON OTHER GURLS! No, REALLY!

It may seem like a fast way to get over your issues...but what its really doing is pissing us off!! Especially if we know you're only trying to get over ur exes and we never really liked you in that way to begin with! And have you ever considered that some of us might like a little space to actually be nice to you and for you guys not to think we 'like' like you?!

And if you know the gurl likes you but you're only flirting with her as a sort of distraction to get over someone...well, you're an ass. Imagine the gurl you like doing that to you...hurts doesnt it?

Rite.

Seriusly, it's time...

....time to get a life apart from cyberworld that is. Judging from the time I spend in cyberworld(cyberworld=msn,facebook,wikipedia,blogs), I guess it would be somewhat hypocritical to say that I don't love it so much anymore. It's addicting I tell ya! *Imagines going to a FA meeting* (facebookers anonymous)

Hi! I'm juna....and I'm a facebook addict. Ok that was lame.heh.

But anyways, MSN is starting to bore me. I see the same old people online day after day, and at this point, a face to face conversation seems far more appealing. Are they really the same people they come off to be in real life? Proabably not. Am I? I would like to think so....but really, who knows?

Even my body seems to be complaining about all this computer time...I guess it would rather I did something else like jogging. When was the last time I went jogging again? Sometime long long ago....let's just leave it at that.
I've never been one to get upset over a couple of extra pounds(although it does get annoying when someone else hints that I should get some excercise.ouch). Those who continue to love me will love me regardless of how much I weigh.....and I will continue to feel good about myself. Yea, my parents raised me right.hehe...

But no, I need to get out...or do something else at least. Exams are coming up in a week....so I guess I should get some studying done. Studying...thats something new to do.Rite?

Songs that I've completly fallen in love with lately

Here's a list of new songs that I've fallen head over heels in love with. If your taste in music is anything like mine(my taste = - heavy metal,bubble gum pop,rap..), you'll probably love them too. Most of them are songs I've heard in random places(starbucks has the best music,no?) and some are songs reccomended by friends..

I saw stars - Marcy's playground
Sex and candy - Marcy's playground
High and Dry - Radiohead
Call me papa - Donovan Frankreiter
You're so true - Joseph Arthur
I can't make me - Butterfly Boucher
Dude(I totally miss you) - Tenacious D
What if - Coldplay
Closer to myself - Kendall Payne
Forever Love - Anna nalick
I wanna love you - Robin Thicke(yes,believe it:P)

I've been thinking...

Yes people, I've been thinking yet again. Thats what I do ok? I think about things which I have absoultely no control over whatsoever, and then I analyse it to the tiniest detail.Then, I freak out.heh.

Annnnyways point being, I've been thinking about life. Believe me, I've had to think about alot of stuff due to recent findings which I do not care to discuss in my blog. And no, I don't usually talk like a stuck up british prude(not that all british people are stuck up.or prude.or even talk like that....*hides*)

First issue at hand; the uni thing. I have one friggin YEAR to decide where I want to go for sure and months to decide where to apply. The worst thing that could happen? Not getting into Uni of Melbourne or all the other unis with impossinly high entry requirements?. Well as far as I'm concerned..screw Melbourne. There are tons of other universities in aussie right? It's not like dad's gonna let me suffer here alone while the rest of the family is over there. And even if I do manage to get into it, I'm starting to have second thoughts.....

And then theres the whole relationship issue. I wish people would stop rushing me to date other guys and let me take my own sweet time. No, it's not because I'm not ready. I can't make myself fall for some guy just for the sake of it alrite? I have high standards people! Kidding. Well, kind of.heh. I've got my priorities straightned out , and the last thing I need now is to get serious with some guy *wonders if she's scared potential prince charming away*. But honestly, this guy has to be pretty damn amazing for me to consider a relationship at this point.
Not that I'm saying I'm not hoping he doesnt come along :P

Cannonball - Damien Rice

I fell in love with this song the moment I heard it on tv. So the lyrics are a tad bit depressing...but he manages to sum up that feeling of trying to move on, but not being able to bring yourself to do that because you're scared shitless so well. Or is it just me? heh. Anyways, I used to listen to this song alot a coupla months bak. Then I just stopped because it brought back horrible memories that I could do without forever. But I just thought I'd listen to it again the other day, and suddenly, it didnt seem to hurt at all anymore.

there’s still a little bit of your taste in my mouth
there’s still a little bit of you laced with my doubt
it’s still a little hard to say what's going on
there’s still a little bit of your ghost your weakness
there’s still a little bit of your face i haven't kissed
you step a little closer each day
and I can´t see what´s going on
stones taught me to flylove, it taught me to lie
life, it taught me to dieso it's not hard to fall
when you float like a cannonball

there’s still a little bit of your song in my ear
there’s still a little bit of your words i long to hear
you step a little closer to meso close that I can´t see what´s going on
stones taught me to fly
love, it taught me to lie
life, it taught me to die
so it's not hard to fall
when you float like a cannon..stones taught me to fly
and love taught me to cry
so come on courage
teach me to be shy
cause it's not hard to fall
and i don't wanna scare herit's not hard to fall
andi don't wanna lose
it's not hard to grow
when you know that you just don't know

Paranoid

Ok I just watched this totally freaky movie called 28 days(or was it weeks). Well, part of it anyway. Half way into the movie, me and my friend realized it wasnt worth the torture of watching such freakingly gruesomness. For all the people who've already watched it didnt find it scary, dudes you've got issues. Which part of people banging their heads on walls out of insaness and then beating other people to death isnt scary?!

Well we still had some time left before I had to go home...so i thought i'd go prom dress shopping. The ICPU prom is coming and ok so I'm not exactly in ICPU....but some of my senior friends asked me to come along..and its the last time I'll be seeing them before theyre off to wherever theyre going. And I've never been one to turn down a chance to dress up ANNNND my mums gotten so into the idea of prom that she's given me a gorgeous budget for my prom dress. Hmm who knows...there might even be some potential princes there

Yea, it's been awhile since I've blogged. I'd like to say I was too busy dealing with life,but the truth is there hasn't been any life shattering events in my life lately, and its been that way for awhile. Not that drama-free life is a bad thing, but it would be nice to feel part of the bigger picture once in awhile.

As for world shaking events(that phrase seems wrong somehow.is there such a thing?), well, thats a completely different story. I'm not going to go into details, mostly to protect the innocent(namely me). That and there's just some things I'm not ready to share with the world. Not with my world anyway.
It sucks how the supposedly best feeling in the world keeps getting you down. Yeah, I think it's getting better....but that's proabably because I refuse to acknowledge the feelings are still there. But I'll get there. I have to...right?

Love calls(the fictional character who seems oh so real.not the feeling). My deep/sharing moods suddenly vanished due to a certain call anyway...so love it is

emoness

You can probably tell from the title of this entry that I'm feeling pretty emo at the moment.Urgh, I hate that word....emoness. It somehow doesnt seem to fully describe this feeling, but neither does the other words dancing(to extremly gloomy music btw) in my brain. Sad? no, I'm not sad...this feeling is more raw than that. Depressed? not that either. Depressed sounds like I'm suicidal or desperately needing psychiatric aid. And while I am undeniably * insert horrible feeling here*, I quite like my life even though it doesnt seem all that good at this paticular second.

Hmm...I guess nostalgic comes close though...

It feels like my whole world is changing all of a sudden. I'm not talking about coming to malaysia....I think I'm starting to really fit in here(or am i just jinxing it?). But I miss my old friends, the ones that I've known since kindergarden, all the way through elementary school and survived with me through high school. And while I love my friends here, I have this completely different bond with those friends who visited me when I got my leg broken for the first time and consoled me when I got my first heartbreak.

But now, everyone seems to be in a rush to grow up and leaving everything behind. It's like all their priorities and values that they were raised to believe in are suddenly insignificant. And while I understand that everyone has a different idea of whats right and wrong, I just cant seem to let this go. Because what they seem to think is right seems soo wrong to me, and that gets me wondering how people with such different moral views can ever be friends again. Is this what growing up is really all about? Do we just have to let go or try desperatly to hold on to the broken pieces that we have left? Which ever way I look at it, nothing feels like it's ever going to be like the way it used to be. And thats a shame, because life was pretty great just the way it was.

For you lucky maldivians

My lifes been pretty uneventful these past few days so I dont really have much to blog about. Got our exam schedule *grimaces*. Once I'm through with them I get to go back to male'....aaargh I miss you guys back home soo much! I guess most of you guys wont be there though huh? Sigh...sometimes I wish we were still back at school...yea, aminiya was a pain...but we had our fun eh? Anyways, we're all going to be in male' during christmas holidays right(if you werent thinking about coming back before, start thinking about it now!) And for our poor future chseians(I feel for you guys) hang in there.....I shall be there in scoop soon enough(Finally!)

Anyways, I thought I'd write about some of my new friends here(well, the PL1 crowd at least).....

Ahh where should I start?
Hmm mervyn(aka lai wei shiung...a name i have yet to pronounce correctly, a fact which justin seems to find hilarious)is my partner in crime when it comes to making totally random,sarcastic jokes that no one usually gets. Or maybe they're just too deep for them eh? heh. He's also our resident photographer...and you guys know what a camwhore I'm turning into right? So it works out just fine (: And we've even got our own language that we tend to speak when the rest of them start blabbering away in madarin...shame we dont know what we're saying though.

Then theres Claire Tan Su wei(but call her claire and die.sigh) She's a total babe, you can practically see the guys drool when she walks pass them(well its true!)...cant wait for prom to see what lengths the poor guys go to....doubt any of them are gonna get any results though.hah. Anyways, she's one of the most honest and down to earth people I know and one of my first friends here. Glad I met you su wei :D

Serene Lee... a complete angel and I dont think theres a single person who's met her that doesnt adore her. Definately one of the nicest and cutest people you'll ever meet. I guess she's also the big sister(in a way) in our group. We'll miss you in econs sereney ):

Can't forget our chef(who's yet to cook us anything i have to add) more commonly known as Justin. He's the biggest badminton fan I've ever met I think. A really decent guy.....heres to many more days of teasing each other eh justin! *psst I forgot your chinese name..sorry*

If you hear the phrase 'you know my friend ar...' you've probably just met florence yong. I swear, I have never met anyone who has so many friends(especially ones with such colorful personalities judging by the stories she tells us:P)....but I'm not surprised. She's one of those people that you'll never really ever get bored around and can practically always make you laugh with her jokes which have ridiculous punch lines. She might make lame jokes but thats why we luv her. Nice having you around flo!

Hmm lets see...who else? Ahh Eu jin(eh?whats his last name?). He's a really nice guy. And responsible. College wouldnt be the same without him around.



Its 1 am. Someone better comment on this one.

Some things you probably dont know about me

1.I'm addicted to those long, sugar covered sour candy they sell at famous amos. Yes, addicted.
2. My dream guy would make me fall completely, head over heels in love with him by singing 'creep' by radiohead for me
3. I have a bear called Benny that I've had since I was 4. He still sleeps in my bed :)
4. I watch Home alone 3 whenever I'm sick in bed
5. I've always secretly thought I was adopted
6. I know all the words to every single song by avril Lavigne(sad innit?)
7. I hate it when people except my mum calls me Ju
8. I have a thing for guys with really short hair (think wentworth miller from prison break)
9. If I use 'lol' that probably means I dont think the joke was funny at all
10. If I tease you on a regular basis, congrats....ure probably on my list of fav people

My inner nerd

My minds on overdrive right now....theres just soo much going on in there(some of which even I dont know). Well, I'm not going to blog about everything cos honestly, I dont need you guys knowing every little detail of my life. That, and it's a bit creepy.

Anyways, no Ms. Harjit didn't kill me. Instead, she told me that she was very angry(but she was laughing.Teachers...theyre so weird). I still think it's totally unfair that she just pointed me out even though literally half of the class skipped the test. She was like....' I expected you to be there...especially you Juna'. Sigh..

I DID manage to get an A for my law assignment, so that proves I havent completely dissapeared to the dark side right? Or maybe I'm just trying to make myself feel less guilty for skipping that test. And no, it's not because I'm a nerd(ok, maybe just a tiny bit....) but I really need a good testi to get into my top 5 uni's which the minimum requirements are AAB or AAA. Aaaargh!!

Speaking of uni's....I dont know WHERE I'm going or where I really want to go for sure yet(and then theres the whole issue of whether I can get in..). I mean yea, I've got my eye on 3 really good uni's...but then I have a bad feeling I might end up in ECU in Perth.....and if given a choice, I wouldnt even consider that place. So right now, I'm not sure WHERE I'm going...or whether I'm even going to apply in august at all.

And the weird thing? for now, thats just alrite.

I've entered the world of cooldom

As I'm writing this, my classmates(well...most of them) are doing their law test. And why am I not up there suffering with them you ask? The answer is simple: I've entered into the world of cooldom. No..I'm kidding, I just spent too much time online last week and ended up barely reading half of the chapters which are coming for the test. Okok so I read them...i just didnt STUDY(huge difference)And honestly, what's worse...skipping one measley test which doesnt count for anything or failing it horribly and messing up my so far, pretty damn good grades? Call it running away from my problems if you must, but I pick the latter.

Shit! Ms.Harjit is gonna kill us tomorrow though. I can just hear her saying 'where were you juna ar? You cant skip classes ok? This is going to affect your testimonials which means you can never get into a decent uni and you're going to end up living on the streets and living a life of crime...'

Ok, so maybe I'm exaggerating a bit, but it's still going to be pretty ugly. Sigh, wish me luck.

Here I am, talking about it too

I was bored and looking through a couple of people's blogs today, and I seemed to come across this one paticular topic in almost everyone's blog repeatedly. Yeah, I knew everyone thought about it and stuff, but I guess I undermined just HOW much of an impact it has on our lives,despite differences in sex,race,religion. And what surprised me further was not ONE person talked about this paticular topic in a postive way...it was all about how this thing screwed them up, how it left them broken, how confused they were...and well, just more depressing stuff. It's a bit scary.

If you havent guessed what it already is, I'm talking about that ugly four letter word. No,the other one...love. And since everyone's talking about it, I thought I should do it too. Although I have to say, I'm not quite sure exactly what I think about it..bah...let me surprise myself too eh?

I dont exactly remember a time when I didn't think I'd find my prince charming(I'd actually prefer a better term..maybe ken.just with a brain.and more manly.and less plastic).Anyways, the point here is, pretty much all of us were read disney fairytales during bedtime and watched their cartoons(I love cinderella and lady and the tramp!but thats not the point..) Remember how the prince always rescues the girl and sweeps her off her feet and how they live happily ever after? Disney lied to us(ooo....a tort case guys:P...I'm thinking emotional distress?) ! This stuff doesnt happen in real life! Yet, we dont exactly ever give up hope,do we? Ok, so maybe some of us do, but the majority of us still keep waiting for our Ken. So that get's me wondering, is it really worth all that effort? Is there a ken(or barbie) for everyone?

My top 20 fav songs at the moment(in no paticular order)

So Beautiful - Pete Murray
Signal Fire - Snow Patrol
I Am A Highway - Audioslave
Aeroplane - Tal Bachman
Seaside - The Kooks
Naive - The kooks
She moves in her own way - The Kooks
Opportunity - Pete Murray
Best Thing You Never Had - Butch Walker
Big Blue Sea - Bob Schneider
Home - Chris Daughtry
Breakfast At Tiffanys - Deep Blue Something
Hear You Me - Jimmy Eat World
Look After You - The Fray
So Goodbye - Howie Day
I Think God Can Explain - Splender
Boston - Augustana
Name - Goo Goo Dolls
Learning to Breathe - Switchfoot
Lightning Crashes - Live

juna the dog(s)?

I just photobucketed my name(like you guys have never done it?) to see the other lucky people who share my name. I was expecting a couple of japanese gurls, maybe some anime, possibly even a place or two. Imagine my horror when not only 1, but 4 pages of DOGS popped up! Now, I dont discriminate against dogs or anything, but seriusly, my parents gave me a dogs name?! Hmm...now that I think about it, I havent met anyone who's called juna, and now I know why..hmph! Why didnt they just go ahead and call me buddy or lucky?*glares*

Juna the dog.eurgh!

i need food

Ok, I'm officially starving. For some reason, I just can't bring myself to go grocery shopping. I've always felt that places like Giant are like quicksand....once you go in, you can never come out. Oh okay...maybe you come out, but you still buy tons of stuff you probably dont need(think 5 chocolate packets, 2 cartons of ice cream and 0 vegetables) and you're back there again a week later. Its a viscous cycle I tell you!

Or maybe I'm just coming up with excuses for being too lazy to get out of the house.

So where was I? ahh yea, starving. All I have at home at the moment is gulha that mum sent me...and as much as I love gulha, theres just so much of that a gurl can eat. And as my cooking abilites are limited to boiling water and making instant noodles which I dont have at home at the moment, it just leaves me with one option. Going grocery shopping. Sigh, I knew it was coming down to this

I'm cheesecake

You Are Cheesecake

Rich, sweet, and simply perfect.

You're not boring - you're just the best!


Hmm....cheesecake is good

*yawn*

Got home an hour or so ago after watching spiderman 3 for the second time in 2 days. The first time I went with a friend for the pure sake of getting to an air conditioned place. Yea, college is air conditioned but cmon, Taylors isnt exactly the most happening place on earth now, is it? But I couldnt tell my housemates I went cos they would kill me if they found out I went without them and well, I've gotten the taste of a good 16 years and I'm in no hurry to die.

Oh well, it was fun anyways. 11 of us went and lets just say there was alot of giggling, popcorn throwing and gabby screaming NOOooo when Harry died.

Ooops, for those yet to watch it, I'm sorry!, pretend you didnt see that part. It's a pretty cool movie, a bit cheesy perhaps, but c'mon...its spiderman! what do you expect?

Sigh...its 1.30 am now....and I still have no mood to go to sleep. Its not that I'm not sleepy. Because I am. Very. But lately, sleeping has just seemed like a waste of time(yea guys, I never thought I'd see the day either). Its not that life has been paticularly good that I dont want to miss a single minute of it. In fact, most of the time lately, it just seems to be very unfair. But theres just so much to do....so many people to talk to....so much to feel......and in comparison,sleeping just seems so pointless.

Did I just hear a rumble from my stomach?...ahh there it is again. Thats my cue, I need food.